Tuesday, June 24, 2008

MOVING ON

Moving on ... breaking free from the past ... letting go ... embarking on a new beginning ... moving forward ...

'love to read each phrase and gobble up bits of meaning I could savor from them, for they seem to bequeath me with optimism, hope and faith ... hmmm, just what I need!

Oh, Christmas and New Year holidays are grief-triggers for somebody like me who lost someone dear. This is, after all, the first time that Bea wasn't there to celebrate the holiday season with us ... and even with numerous holidays to come, she'll still be missed so much. But while I wished that she was there, I have come to terms with the fact that she now belongs to the Father. So be it, amen. Ok, I really need to help myself for not doing so would be a mess. Pretty good start to moving on, huh?!

Feeling sad is normal ... it is an expression of LOVE. If we don't love Bea then we won't be sad. But we love her so much that's why we're saddened by her loss and deeply miss her presence. Being sad is something that we cannot get away with all at once. It takes time or maybe it's something that would be there forever and we would just have to deal with it.

Yep, although this may not be the happiest Christmas that I ever had, I tried to prepare for this season to counter the grief ... 'tell you, nothing really helped to do this but God's grace and mighty support. Whenever I feel down and out, I'd fill myself with prayers and God's Words then I'd find myself up and about ... honest, these give me strength and wisdom. Plus, I find solace with my family -- they provide additional strength and so much joy ... and of course, old and new friends who understand and feel with me.

Well, the key point is MOVING ON ... and yes, I have made the decision to move on! It is the right thing to do and moving forward is, I'm sure, the only direction to take. Hmmm, moving on is not easy ... that is, if I would do it alone. But invoking God to lead me forward is a sure-win way. For some, it may sound trite, but it's definitely true. I know it! We certainly cannot do it by ourselves alone. We need God ... in everything, in fact.

I praise and thank God because I feel Him working within us. With Him guiding and supporting us, slowly we are MOVING ON ... even if it means taking baby steps to recovery. Bea would be extremely glad.

Indeed, GOD is GOOD ... all the time!

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